Unfinished Coffee

I wrote this about a month ago, today I decided to publish it.

Was I not worth the fight? How does someone you spent half your life with, decide they don’t want to work on your relationship anymore?

Too much…pain, stress, anxiety.

I know he still cares, he’s crumbling More each day, so either way there’s pain.

Why cant some people state what they want or need? Why is everything hidden, feelings, emotions….was that something that was taught?

I know I am a good person and I will find my happiness, I wish I didn’t have to go through such an emotional rollercoaster to get there.

My heart is full because this week I was able to spend a lot of time with her.

We had good quality time the three of us, played with the sprinkler, pool, water balloons, fireworks, And we even went out for ice cream one day which was a first for all of us to do together.

That’s why my heart is full. I feel blessed that I am able to spend this time with her I know she enjoys my company by her reactions.

There’s a heaviness when I think about our time that’s spent together will come to an end.

I wish it didn’t have to be like this, I wish it didn’t have to end, but it’s not in my control. That’s why my heart is broken.

I’ve read you have to let go of things you can no longer control That’s much easier said than done. Especially when love is involved.

It was only today that I realized after spending those days with her, when this comes to an end, I will miss her. That explains why for the last 2 days I have been a little emotional.

Separating the mind from the heart is probably one of the hardest things to do. Thoughts and feelings. Both strong.

I always believed in fate. Things happen for a reason Is that fate I wonder.